Adventures in Breastfeeding! (Part 2)

I have been taking Domperidone since January 19, and so far it’s been going reasonably well. I’ve definitely noticed an improvement….it went from an average of 10 mls to 20 mls to my current cap of 40 mls per session just in the past 3 days or so. Only time will tell if it will be a vast enough improvement in order to eventually exclusively breast feed.

Today I finally went and bought a lactation aid (supplement kit) and a nipple shield. I tried them out, and Noah freaked out a little bit, but overall, he took them like a champ. I put the supplement kit on, and Noah took down 50 mls from my left side.

This is what a supplement kit looks like.....and no, that's not me lol. Thank you Google Images! 😛

I then tried it on my right, but he wouldn’t go for it, so I decided to try the nipple shield just for the hell of it. And it worked!

A nipple shield!

I have no idea how much he took (since it was all breast milk, vs with the supplement kit he got formula as well as boob), but he passed out for a bit immediately after, lol.

He woke up about an hour later and was hungry though, so I gave him the rest of his original bottle (so, another 100 mls) and he was happy.

We’ll see how things go. Attempt #2 wasn’t as successful, but he’s just starting to get the hang of things so I’m going to try to be patient.

Overall, I am VERY optimistic! 🙂

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Read Part 1 here, Part 3 here, and Part 4 here.

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Born This Way – Lady Gaga LYRICS!

BORN THIS WAY
WRITTEN BY: LADY GAGA
PRODUCED BY: LADY GAGA, FERNANDO GARIBAY, DJ WHITE SHADOW
MIXED AND ENGINEERED BY: DAVID RUSSEL

INTRO:
It doesn’t matter if you love him, or capital H-I-M
Just put your paws up
’cause you were Born This Way, Baby

VERSE:
MY MAMA TOLD ME WHEN I WAS YOUNG
WE ARE ALL BORN SUPERSTARS

SHE ROLLED MY HAIR AND PUT MY LIPSTICK ON
IN THE GLASS OF HER BOUDOIR

“THERE’S NOTHIN WRONG WITH LOVIN WHO YOU ARE”
SHE SAID, “‘CAUSE HE MADE YOU PERFECT, BABE”

“SO HOLD YOUR HEAD UP GIRL AND YOU’LL GO FAR,
LISTEN TO ME WHEN I SAY”

CHORUS:
I’M BEAUTIFUL IN MY WAY
‘CAUSE GOD MAKES NO MISTAKES
I’M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN THIS WAY

DON’T HIDE YOURSELF IN REGRET
JUST LOVE YOURSELF AND YOU’RE SET
I’M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN THIS WAY

POST-CHORUS:
OOO THERE AIN’T NO OTHER WAY
BABY I WAS BORN THIS WAY
BABY I WAS BORN THIS WAY
OOO THERE AIN’T NO OTHER WAY
BABY I WAS BORN-
I’M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN THIS WAY

DON’T BE A DRAG -JUST BE A QUEEN
DON’T BE A DRAG -JUST BE A QUEEN
DON’T BE A DRAG -JUST BE A QUEEN
DON’T BE!

VERSE:
GIVE YOURSELF PRUDENCE
AND LOVE YOUR FRIENDS
SUBWAY KID, REJOICE YOUR TRUTH

IN THE RELIGION OF THE INSECURE
I MUST BE MYSELF, RESPECT MY YOUTH

A DIFFERENT LOVER IS NOT A SIN
BELIEVE CAPITAL H-I-M (HEY HEY HEY)
I LOVE MY LIFE I LOVE THIS RECORD AND
MI AMORE VOLE FE YAH (LOVE NEEDS FAITH)

REPEAT CHORUS + POST-CHORUS

BRIDGE:

DON’T BE A DRAG, JUST BE A QUEEN
WHETHER YOU’RE BROKE OR EVERGREEN
YOU’RE BLACK, WHITE, BEIGE, CHOLA DESCENT
YOU’RE LEBANESE, YOU’RE ORIENT
WHETHER LIFE’S DISABILITIES
LEFT YOU OUTCAST, BULLIED, OR TEASED
REJOICE AND LOVE YOURSELF TODAY
‘CAUSE BABY YOU WERE BORN THIS WAY

NO MATTER GAY, STRAIGHT, OR BI,
LESBIAN, TRANSGENDERED LIFE
I’M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN TO SURVIVE
NO MATTER BLACK, WHITE OR BEIGE
CHOLA OR ORIENT MADE
I’M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN TO BE BRAVE

REPEAT CHORUS

OUTRO/REFRAIN:

I WAS BORN THIS WAY HEY!
I WAS BORN THIS WAY HEY!
I’M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN THIS WAY HEY!

I WAS BORN THIS WAY HEY!
I WAS BORN THIS WAY HEY!
I’M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN THIS WAY HEY!

Things I’ve Learned

I was thinking yesterday about how different I thought things would be, being pregnant, giving birth, etc. Maybe I just watched too many Lifetime movies, but here it goes:

Things I’ve Learned About Being Pregnant/Being A Mom

Pregnancy HURTS. For some reason I always thought that pregnancy was super comfortable up until labor.

The pushing part of labor is actually way better than early contractions, and somehow less painful. I think that’s because you’re actually working towards something rather than just praying for the contraction to end.

Your birth plan gets thrown out the window. That had been mentioned to me a few times during my pregnancy, but I didn’t think my labor/post-labor would be NEARLY as unexpected as it was.

Sometimes you just need to learn to breathe and roll with the punches.

– I never knew I could love something so much. I know that that sounds like the biggest cliche EVER, but it’s so true.

– You never really know how many children you actually want until you have your first one. I’ve been a “I want one kid” person since I even started thinking about it…so probably since age 14 or so. Now….I think I want another baby! (eventually)

When they tell you that your baby will keep you up all night, THEY ARE NOT EXAGGERATING. I thought that I’d be fairly well off, I used to party all night, have 2 hours of sleep and go to class. Apparently I’m just old now…being up all the time is kicking my ass!

Breastfeeding is hard…..much more difficult and stressful than you’d ever think. I didn’t think breastfeeding would be easy, per se, but I never thought that I’d have to go through the whole shebang of pumping every 3 hours, taking meds, taking supplements, ETC. I thought that my biggest worry would be not having enough milk, nevermind if the baby can’t breastfeed at all for a couple weeks and get massive nipple confusion because of it. Milk is part of my problem, but the main problem is that my supply is not at a “Noah” level yet because of his rocky start. I also never thought that it would be so bloody stressful!

– Something’s gotta give. I need sleep too, the dishes can wait!

– Pregnancy/motherhood can be so incredibly isolating and lonely. It never really kicked in until I was a few months along, but it was difficult not being around my friends all the time, going out with them, etc. It’s hard when you realize that the only thing you had in common with a lot of people is drinking, and they’re a completely different person without alcohol attached…..and you don’t even like them that much! I felt so alone for a lot of my pregnancy. I suppose that’s to be expected though, I’m 19 years old, so the vast majority of my friends are still out partying and making bad decisions.

I miss partying all the time, but at the same time I don’t. I miss having the freedom to go out whenever I wanted and not have to worry about a little person waiting at home, but I really don’t miss the person that I was when I used to party all the time. That was a very sad, lonely person. I’m still sad and lonely, but for much different reasons. My main reason back then is that I just wanted to be loved. As cliche as that sounds, that was totally it. I wanted a guy who would look at me for more than my body, and actually appreciate me for who I am. Luckily, I found that. And we got together and made a little boy who I love so so much, even when he cries and drives me a little bit crazy.

People are bitches. Whether it’s those who judge me for using donor milk or those that bitch at me for not replying to their messages (fuck off, seriously), I’ve found that I need to just accept that people are bitches and there’s no need for me to get upset about it anymore, since there isn’t anything I can do to change it.

– Your mother can drive you crazy, but you’re going to be like that too. YUP.

– Having a healthy baby is the only thing you should worry about while pregnant/giving birth, etc. The events of the last 5 weeks have shown me that to the tenth degree. I was all worried about not being able to breastfeed, etc…..little did I know that I’d be worried about whether my baby would live or not. And now I have to worry about how the brain damage will affect him as he grows up, for the rest of his life. It’s enough to drive someone batty, but I’m trying not to let it hit me as hard as it could.

PPD is a bitch. I’m still not 100% sure if I have it, but I can feel the stirrings…..and I don’t like it.

– Random women across the country that you meet on a baby website can become your “virtual family”. I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again, I am so unbelievably glad that I found BabyCenter and the Winter Babies group. Those women are fantastic individuals, and they made my pregnancy a little less terrifying. It’s great knowing that there are people rooting for you. I think this was especially important to me since a lot of my “real life” friends have fallen off the face of the Earth. The Winter Babies ladies kind of became my replacement friends….they made me a little less lonely. 🙂

 

I am so grateful that all this crazy bullshit has happened to me….I think it’s made me much stronger, and made me grow up in a big way. Who knew that such a little person could have changed my life so much already 🙂

Random: Philadelphia Abortion Doctor Charged With 8 Counts Of Murder

*Please note: This story is terrifying and depressingly sad.

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PHILADELPHIA (CBS) – A West Philadelphia abortion doctor, his wife and eight other suspects are now under arrest following a grand jury investigation.

Dr. Kermit Gosnell, 69, faces eight counts of murder in the deaths of a woman following a botched abortion at his office, along with the deaths of seven other babies who, prosecutors allege, were born alive following illegal late-term abortions and then were killed by severing their spinal cords with a pair of scissors.

“I am aware that abortion is a hot-button topic,” said District Attorney Seth Williams. “But as district attorney, my job is to carry out the law. A doctor who knowingly and systematically mistreats female patients, to the point that one of them dies in his so-called care, commits murder under the law. A doctor who cuts into the necks severing the spinal cords of living, breathing babies, who would survive with proper medical attention, is committing murder under the law.”

Gosnell is facing charges of murder in the third degree for the death of 41-year-old Karnamaya Mongar.  Mrs. Mongar died on November 20, 2009, when she was overdosed with anesthetics prescribed by Gosnell.  He is also facing seven murder charges for the deaths of infants who were killed after being born viable and alive during the sixth, seventh, or eighth month of pregnancy. Gosnell is also facing numerous other charges.

Gosnell is suspected of killing hundreds of living babies over the course of his 30-year practice. However, he is not charged because the records do not exist.

DA Williams said Gosnell made approximately $1.8 million in one year alone performing the procedures.

Four of the suspects, some improperly licensed according to officials, also face multiple counts of murder for allegedly killing the newborns.  All of the suspects are now behind bars after warrants were served overnight.

A search of Gosnell’s office, called the Women’s Medical Society, revealed that bags and bottles holding aborted fetuses were scattered throughout the building.  Jars containing the severed feet of babies lined a shelf.

Gosnell, a family practioner, was never certified as an OB/GYN. He is accused of re-using unsanitary instruments and performing procedures in filthy rooms.  Some of the rooms had litter boxes and animals present at the time of the operations.

Investigators also said Gosnell allowed unlicensed employees, including a 15-year-old high school student, to perform operations and administer anesthesia.

The grand jury investigation revealed that, for over two decades, government health and licensing officials had received repeated reports about Gosnell’s dangerous practices.  However, no action was ever taken, even after the agencies learned that Mrs. Mongar had died during routine abortions under Gosnell’s care.

Dr. Gosnell, who has practiced in the West Philadelphia neighborhood for decades, is also the target of a federal grand jury investigation into illegally prescribing prescription drugs. Investigators say during a search of his home, they found $240,000 in cash.

Defense attorney William J. Brennan, who was out of town when the arrest happened this morning, said he had not yet talked to Dr. Gosnell, but says the charges are extremely serious and emotionally charged, and it is extremely important not to have a rush to judgement. Brennan says Gosnell is “cloaked with the presumption of innocence.”

Meanwhile, a civil suit has also been filed against Gosnell on behalf of the husband and children of the woman who died after an abortion.  The suit seeks unspecified damages for the family of Karna Mongar, an immigrant from Bhutan who spent many years as a refugee.  The suit claims she died after just five months here because of treatment by unlicenced personnel in a facility that lacked proper medical equipment.

The doctor, in past interviews with Eyewitness News, has proclaimed his innocence, predicting if charged, he will be acquitted.

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This is just another example of how the world is going down the shitter. I can’t even imagine what this guy was thinking, besides the money he was making. Call me crazy, but even if someone offered me $1,000,000 to “severe [a baby’s] spinal cord with a pair of scissors”, there is absolutely no way that I could. (Shudder)

It makes me incredibly sad that there are a) people out there like this doctor and b) women out there looking for 6, 7, 8 month abortions. I support a woman’s right to choose, but that only goes up to the legal 26 weeks (which, after being pregnant, I realize is even pushing it….but again, it’s the woman’s choice). After that, I’m sorry, but you are a murderer. Especially after the crucial 27 weeks, where a baby has something like a 85% chance of surviving outside of the womb.

I am sad, infuriated, and disappointed in society.

Follow Up: Bitch!

I went over to “The Blog Bitch”‘s blog today to see if she decided to approve any more comments besides the one nice one she got from Karen, only to find that she has made her blog private.

She is obviously tired of hearing the truth: that she is an ignorant hypocrite 🙂

I can’t post the link now (since it’s private), but one of her posts said that since the doctors didn’t see any problems with her baby (this is back in June, when she was about 16 weeks pregnant), she decided not to do amino testing since she felt no reason to endanger a healthy fetus. Uhhhh….is that not exactly what she was condemning me for?

Anyway, good riddance.

NOW PLAYING: “Adventures in Breastfeeding” (Part 1)

Now Playing:

ADVENTURES IN……..BREASTFEEEEEEEDING!

Starring:

Olivia – of small boobs and the big dream to eventually breastfeed her son.

Noah – the baby born into unfortunate circumstances, just trying to catch up to where his mother wants him to be.

Supporting Roles:

Domperidone – a medication renowned for its milk-producing abilities.

A hospital grade pump – of whose strength knows no boundaries.

A lactation consultant, Barb – of whose supreme knowledge and specialization with babies that have issues is met by a sizable obstacle….that she only works Mondays and Tuesdays.

GASP!

CAN SHE DO IT?

CAN SHE ACHIEVE THIS ALMIGHTY DREAM?

Stay tuned for more…………ADVENTURES IN BREASTFEEEEEDING!

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Read Part 2 here, Part 3 here, and Part 4 here.

Happy 1 month, Noah!

Today, Noah is 1 month old. It’s hard to believe that one month ago today I was wanting to cut my uterus off, lol. It’s even harder to believe that all of his NICU drama happened in his first 10 days of life!

What’s happened this month:

– Noah was discharged from the Stollery (December 29).

– Mom started trying to increase her milk supply.

– Noah learned to cry/startle/grab, etc.

– Noah melted hearts left and right!

– Noah had his first manly Timmies experience with Daddy.

Noah, today:

Rant Corner: Bitch!

I refuse to give this person the satisfaction of more hits, so instead I am going to just copy and paste this:

“January 4, 2011

Never Say Never

It has been so long since I’ve posted anything and I really need to do ALOT of catching up! However, before I start posting about my current life and everything that has gone on in the past two months, I just need to get something off my chest.

When I first got pregnant with Kaycie, I joined an online group of mothers all expecting around the same date. It was fun to read about everyone else’s journey and know that many of them faced the same issues and questions. However, after losing Kaycie I realized that I no longer belonged there. During my pregnancy with Prairie, I definitely did not belong there. I mean really…I just couldn’t care about types of strollers or whether to formula feed or breast feed. I had much more important concerns. At first, I didn’t even go near that particular website. However, as I got more and more positive news about Prairie I started to check in on it. I rarely posted but I read along.

The one day I did post it was after a group of women were discussing prenatal testing and whether or not to do it. There was, of course, the uber-pious types who self-righteously proclaimed “I would NEVER have an abortion, so why test?” Needless to say, this irked me beyond belief. I posted my story and basically told them all to kiss my ass. Not nice, I know. But they ticked me off! Most of them fell all over themselves saying: “well, of course, that is a different story.” etc etc.

Anyway, I recently went back and read up on the ladies birth stories to see how everyone else was doing. What I read broke my heart. One woman (who declined testing) found out at birth that her baby had serious heart problems and had to be air lifted to the nearest children’s hospital. Luckily, her baby will be ok after receiving heart surgery. “Lucky” being a relative term.

///This next bit is about me – Olivia///

 
Another woman wasn’t so “lucky.” Her son was born right on schedule and was over 8lbs. However, after a few hours, they noticed he was having seizures and problems breathing. They started running tests and what they found was devastating. This baby is completely “brain dead” in her words. He will never have any quality of life. In a hospital 6 hours away from where they live, they had to make the decision to remove him from life support and “let nature take its course.” While I’m devastated for her, she could have found this out months ago had she chosen to have some type of prenatal testing done.

My point? Even if you would “NEVER” have an abortion, prenatal testing is important. If, for no other reason than you can be prepared. Have the doctors and hospital in place that can deal with your particular situation. Knowledge is power and while ignorance is bliss, burying your head in the sand will serve no purpose. I can only imagine how devastated the mother of the “brain dead” baby is to have to go home to see a nursery already prepared for the arrival of a new baby. So sad.”


UM. No, actually, we couldn’t have anticipated this if I had done prenatal testing. Because Noah’s issues were caused by a lack of oxygen at birth, not any genetic issues.

She makes me SO mad. Get off your freakin’ high horse.

My favorite part is that she writes it as if this is my fault. I can honestly say that Noah’s doctor at the Stollery told me that there was literally NOTHING I could have done differently, so I’m pissed off that this woman thinks I had something to do with it.

What an effing bitch.

 

* Oh, and I’m ignoring the general rule of thumb to put a link to someone’s blog if you quote it. She can bite me.